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Height: 5’5”
HW: 145 lbs
LW: 105 lbs
SW: 132 lbs - Feb 3, 2012
CW: 132 lbs
GW1: 125 lbs
GW2: 115 lbs
GW3: 105 lbs
UGW: 98 lbs
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU AZKABAN!
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Thank you (: I’ll try to do that. Have you ever done the abc?
I’m really disappointed with my ABC diet, I feel like I’ve completely buggered it up and part of me wants to just start the whole thing over again, but I don’t want to eat 500cals tomorrow.
I was thinking maybe, a 2 day fast, and then starting it again?
Or maybe I should just suck it up and continue despite my failure today…
errr…
thoughts, anyone?
I’m not allowed to “ask” anymore questions, so please message me!
if I do decide on a fast, then ABC again, anyone wanna be my buddy?
ahhh, choices, choices.
If I fall asleep within the next half hour, I’ll get 2.5 hours of sleep.
I’ve laid down, got up, laid down, etc, too many times to count and it’s beginning to drive me to madness.
I want to sleeep. :(
fuck you, insomnia.
“Dead girl walking,” the boys say in the halls.
“Tell us your secret,” the girls whisper, one toilet to
another.
I am that girl.
I am the space between my thighs, daylight shining
through.
I am the library aide who hides in Fantasy.
I am the circus freak encased in beeswax.
I am the bones they want, wired on a porcelain
frame.
I’ve been working out since the post about my binge to burn off all the calories I took in, and I did it! Nearly killed myself and am completely worn out and still unable to sleep, but at least I burned them off.
Not that it made me feel a hell of a lot better. I still feel bloody disgusting, and I’m just so angry with myself for losing my control tonight. Especially as I had been doing so good all day.
It’s always the damn evening when I get some binge crazy mood, but usually my sleeping meds would have helped that.
And now I’m so not looking forward to tomorrow, I have to get up at 5am to fit in my workout before I leave for my German course, and it’s currently midnight and I’m still wide awake and have more workout to do.
I really should try going to sleep somehow, but I just feel an insatiable need to burn more calories. Just a bit more. Then I’ll try sleeping again.
I’m just so fucking scared to lay down and allow my mind to wander and fuck me up like it did last time.
Her legs omg.
I just completely binged and messed up day 5 (100cals)
Tomorrow, should I re-do day 5, or go onto day 6?
:(
